i almost never remember my dreams (seriously), but last night i had a (not that bad) bad dream that somehow combined my most common bad dreams of the past several years…

• first, i went to a huge classroom that was INSANELY crowded. i’m talking tons and tons of kids. i finally found a free desk, so i put my books down. then i walked away and i couldn’t find my desk with my books because it was so huge and crowded.

• then the really common part came in: i realized i had never gone to the class before because i never knew about it, because i had somehow lost my class schedule. i’ve had that dream many times over the past several years. where you just never go to a class because you don’t know that you’re enrolled in it, and then one day you realize that you’re way too behind to catch up.

• so then i gave up and left the class without my books.

• then i somehow ended up in a cooking class with a bunch of guy friends (that don’t exist) who also included an old crush (who did exist). all i remember is completely embarrassing myself in front of my crush (obviously a common dream, also, i’ve done exactly what i did in the dream in real life). and then going home.

• annnnd then i woke up.

• it took me a few minutes to realize that not only had i not missed an entire semester of a class, but that i was finished with school altogether and no longer go. my most common dreams still are dreams where i either don’t know i’m supposed to go to a class, or where i simply get really lost on the way to the class and never make it there. then i always wake up relieved that i’m done with school. i think the moral is that part of me still thinks i’m in school.